Through Mo0miE's Eyes...

Kaput.

2006-01-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

And so it is...

One door in my life closes.

-Peace Out-

Guitar in the wee hours...

2006-01-04T07:11:00.000+08:00

I love my parents.

Mom. Dad. I love you.

And my sister.

-Peace out

The white truth

2006-01-04T03:03:00.000+08:00

I hurt so bad right now.

Flowers are beautiful. My msn pic is called "God's painting". And it's real.

-Peace out

Take note...

2006-01-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

I never was an angel to being with...i have my flaws...and so does everybody else...

I rarely get pushed over the edge. But some things do that.

Oh how you still haunt me...i wonder whether you think of me.

Sigh.

Damn it.

You must be happy now, with everything in your life.

Jin, slap me. I'm doing what i shouldn't be doing. J, slap me.

Anybody else who reads me blog...haha...i don't know...remind me?

It's these bloody nights...and listening to sad love songs...that make you want someone.

But i'm not gonna do anything. Too uncertain to jump back into the game. But yet i want to.

I'll just wait for now i guess.

Somebody come sweep my heart away. I want to forget.

And before you all correct me on how gay that sounded...it is the truth.

-Peace Out

One-two step..

2005-12-30T04:02:00.000+08:00

After a night of music, dancing and drinking...i have to say it's pretty pleasant..could've been better...but i'm not complaining...

And i'm still thinking about you...sigh...damn it.

The bloody memories keep flooding my mind. Must be nice to have someone else to think about and care about.

Maybe i'll sleep now..

Peace out..

-Mo0miE-

Hey pretty girl...

2005-12-28T02:12:00.000+08:00

Kate and Leopold is a good movie.

New York is a nice place.

Night is a nice time.

But not in my bed.

Heh don't worry o' quirky, random, crazy one. I'll remind you and you'll remind me yea. And we'll let Fate do the rest. Nice to have someone sharing the same boat...although it's a wee bit squeezy for two...haha.

Don't fall to the Dark Side...as tempting as it is..

"Songs"

Let music do the healing for us,
Let lyrics do the crying for us,
Let them remind us of times gone by,
But let them remind us that there are times to come.

Let music do the understanding for us,
Let the lyrics do the speaking for us,
Let them remind us of times gone by,
But let them remind us that there are times to come.

Songs are all,
And songs are none,
Words are only words,
Until we are one.

For all those who love music, love and Dark Angel. Wherever you may be, watching, waiting, in the darkness and shadow.

Though it's been said...

2005-12-24T15:48:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all.

Enjoy your holidays!

Mm hmm...yes...even you. God bless

-Peace Out-

You..

2005-12-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

You...yes you...you know who i'm talking about...do yourself a favour and stop reading my blog if you're so interested in kicking me out of your life.

Everytime you do read my blog...ask yourself why..if the reason's just to find out how i am...then leave...because i'm trying how to find out how you are and i get squat. I'm never gonna change my blog...and i'll give you the benefit of a doubt that you can't be bothered to read it anymore. That is if you're determined to leave me out of your life.

Don't use a double standard. At least i asked you for it...

-Peace Out to you-

Viking Kong

2005-12-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

I love the guitar....may no one ever take that away from me. amen.

/airguitar

I love my friends...all you guys...esp. my buds from SJI (Jin, J, Perpz) and NP, MCM (you know who you are).

I'll find someone better for me...don't you guys worry.

Thanks for all your advice and support.

May the bonds of brotherhood never die.

Viva la Aerosmith. Peace. Out.

-Mo0miE

I guess you don't...

2005-12-17T17:12:00.000+08:00

So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

'Cause I don't know
Where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way

'Cause I don't know
Where your journey goes
Or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart

- Corrinne May, Every Beat Of My Heart

And so it goes again...another harsh ranting begins

2005-12-16T02:28:00.000+08:00

Somewhere along the way...you stopped thinking about me and started thinking for yourself. Not that i minded it...in fact i encouraged it..but seriously...after awhile...you started thinking ALL for yourself. What the hell happened to me? I became something of a title at the back of your mind goin "Yea...i'm Sean...your boyfriend...yes...the tall guy". What do you mean you don't have enough time and you're tired? You obviously are totally game with going out with your dota friends till like 4 in the morning...so i don't see why we couldn't have a normal date...When i made the effort to go to your house? Sure you would stop playing DotA...then what? Sleep. Yes. Sleep for the whole duration i was at your house. Why? Coz you were tired from playing DotA. Freedom? I don't see any signs of me hindering your freedom...Unfortunately you were having too much of it to remember that i was supposed to matter to you. Yes...the title boyfriend does indeed ring a bell of importance to most people, but not all. And honestly...you know saying sorry just doesn't cut it..and i remember your sms saying "it sucks that i hurt you so bad that you're so scared of it now. don't worry, i promise i'll make it up to you". Simply hollow. What's even worse is if you didn't even mean it when you sent that msg.

I'm really angry about the way you treated me. Know that.

There you go...my two cents. Feel so much better to get it off my chest.

-PEACE...out...fuck yea

An idle mind...

2005-12-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

"Inspiration"

Days go ridiculously long,
like those with no end in sight,
even the sun's eclipse,
cannot hide my ghoulish mood,
but if i were that depressed,
i wouldn't be me.

Enemies i know not of,
naive some may call me,
but be in my shoes for a day,
and witness peace among brothers,
among those around,
if i were like you,
i wouldn't be me.

Believe in God you do,
Where in my eyes,
his place sits unchallenged,
Karma in his right hand,
Luck in his left,
Truth in his eyes,
His heart in people that pass onto me,
that is me.

"Slacking"

The twisted being that is procrastination,
Angel by face,
Devil by soul,
Weaved by sloth,
strong is its hold.

The twisted being that is procrastination,
Human by nature,
God by nurture,
Weaved by lies,
it's purely demise.

This twisted being that is procrasination,
I shall write about it next week,
there's plenty of time.

And so it is...

2005-12-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

Everytime i look away i see, the ghost of you.

Easy for you, but not for me.

Did i guess wrong? No, it's easy for you.

You walked out of the door long ago, but left the door wide open.

With me waiting for you to close it.

Tell me it's gonna be alright in time.

But words are hollow till they ripen in the hourglass.

What were you waiting for.

Just what did i change for, just what was i waiting for.

I have no fucking idea.

For the record...

2005-11-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm back with my Dark Angel and i thought i'd post it...probably about a month ago...

Thanks to everybody who gave me your advice...who were there for me...

To you guys...my buds...friends for life...*raises a glass*

In no following order:

Jin
J
Perpz

Oh...you're reading? Hello again!

2005-07-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hey people...it's me again..

I've taken this short (or long) break from my blog coz i'm really just to damned lazy to update it all the time. But i don't know...i think i shall start updating it again...

Been burning my fingers on the fretboard of my Yamaha Pacifica lately...about 3 hours of pure training yesterday...finally nailed the intro and solo of "Love of a Lifetime"...also learned some fun stuff...like a looping riff from Craig David's "Rendezvous" and another one from Hanson's "Beautiful Eyes".

My current song of the moment: California Dreaming. Thanks to Lush 99.5 from getting me aquainted with the covered version by Motorpsycho. I love that god damned station. Finally i can turn on the radio and always be content with what's on.

Life's been ok for those who don't really know me well...but still read on anyway....heh...The usual dose of ups and downs...Work's quite ok...although i'm slacking a wee bit..OK...maybe more than a wee bit...

Canteen 4 is really under-rated among Mass Comm students. Reason? "It's so far!" "I'm tired to walk there!"

Taste the food first before you say anything like that folks....lolz...ok..so today may not be up to par...but should we only let the Engineering students enjoy the food there?! NO! Managed to drag Nenkz and Stepth there today..hopefully the holy word will be spread...lolz...that canteen 4 is the best canteen in Ngee Ann...after the tragic revamp of Canteen 2...really sad...let's bow our heads in a moment of silence to reflect...

Moving on..

Six months with my Dark Angel...it's quite lovely i must say...A trip for two to Bali...now when will that happen? Heh...

I'M BACK!

Peace...Out...

22nd April 2005

2005-04-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

I will remember this day for the rest of my life.

I love you hun.

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

Scared..."now that i have a love of my own" Rod Stewart...

2005-04-17T14:13:00.000+08:00

Jazz soothes a scared soul. Especially mine right now.

Especially Rod Stewart's Stardust: The Great American Songbook III.

I'm scared of uncertainty.

Uncertainty created by the current situation of things and things yet to come.

I ask how, why, when, where, who.

I'm a realistic optimist. But even i'm not blind to what could happen.

If the big guy up there really has something he wants us to know, through all this shit. I hope i get it. I really do. Because it's really being a bitch right now for me.

It's going to be such a long journey. I'm scared. And i'll need to you to tell me that it's alright. And i'll do the same for you too.

There's gonna be so much distractions....

I just want to fucking make it work. So bad. Despite all the fucking shit that's happening now.

Jazz soothes the scared soul.

Peace....Out....

-Mo0miE

Blue Moon

2005-04-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm listening to a Dean Martin classic now. Blue Moon. Man this is relaxing. After i listened to all the songs i've d/led in my media library...this song stands out from the rest. Simply because it's slow...smooth..and relaxing...and it's Dean Martin. Heh.

I'm pretty lazy when it comes to the holidays. Just how i like it. I don't plan to work during the holidays. Why? I don't know. I think i'm lazy. Everybody around me's working. Man. Can't help but feel a bit guilty and useless. Lolz. Worked for half a year at Levi's. It was tiring...but it wasn't stressful. I don't wanna grow up too fast. Not just yet.

Just wanna kick back and relax. Laying in a hammock overlooking the sunset on a beach somewhere in East Coast...with the sea breeze whispering in my ear..and the radio playing Blue Moon softly in the background. A drink on a small table next to me. Ice Milo...or something with a kick. I look into the sky...watching golden clouds float past, or just watching life go past me. Ahhhh...how nice that would be.

Life's been pretty good. More time to spend with someone i love. Can't help thinking i should be spending this time doing something fruitful...well...is working out..or practicing guitar..or gaming fruitful?..i think so..lolz.

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

Addicted to you

2005-03-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

Mindblowing. Simply mindblowing.

I love the holidays.

It only means more time to spend with you.

Doing whatever it is we do together. Heh.

Peace...Out..

-Mo0miE

Blank

2005-03-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

Once i see you.
Once i hear you.
Once i catch the smell of your hair.
Once i get a smile out of you.
Once.

Once i do that, it is hard to leave your company. Everytime i see you, i am stuck to you, and i never want to be away from you. So when you say you have to go, heh, i am naturally bummed out. When i know some of the time spent away from you would be so much better spent if we were together instead. At least i think that's how you feel too.

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

Nothing to worry about...except skool work...

2005-03-20T17:35:00.000+08:00

I am at peace.

Now that we've worked it out. I am grateful. Thank you for your understanding and patience. I really appreciate the honesty. And honestly, i think it's made us stronger. I really do.

I've learned from it. And i know you have too. Seems like it's getting better each day. There will be more trials and tribulations. But i will always be here. Ready to take on the challenges that you and i face. Together.

I regret nothing. I could use you in my life. No. Right now, i need you in my life. I could use the complication now, if it means simplicity later on.

And if you're still wondering. No. You make me happy more than you make me sad. This is the truth. I wish to make it clear so that you have no doubts in your mind. And it's nonsense to think that you making me sad will actually dampen me loving you. Such obstacles are negligable. Such obstacles are...minute...compared to how happy you make me. And i want you to know that.

Nothing worries me now...except for school work. Well, not really worry. More like just the feeling you get when you got work to do. Lolz.

Feels good to have little to worry about. This is almost like in secondary school. The only big change is you.

Yesterday was perfect. I love you.

Just felt very...loving...yesterday. Perhaps it was because most of my family was at my house. And you were there too. And baby cousin Ethan has taken a liking to you. Hee hee.

My grandma likes you too i think. I shall ask her for the answer. Heh.

Definitely felt very loving yesterday. Realised how much you meant to me. And how lucky i was. Man...this sounds so cheesy i could shoot myself in the foot. Urgh.

Strangely enough...i'm actually listening to a chinese song. Amagad. Lolz. It's called "Ji Mo Bian Jie" by Zhang Dong Liang. I chanced upon it from someone's blog. And i thought, 'wow....this song sounds nice....'. It's just one of those songs, no matter what language, that sound universally melodious and pleasant to the ear. A direct translation of that song would be 'the boundary of loneliness'. It's a sad song. Lolz. But it sounds nice to the ear. Can't really explain. Who knows....i may just listen to more of his songs. And start singing in Chinese too. O_O >_> <_<. Now that would be something.

Too busy saving the galaxy now. Heh. The Republic needs Naes Gnixai, exiled Jedi Knight. With his trusty ship, the Ebon Hawk, and his unlikely crew of droids, a jedi/sith master, a Sith apprentice, a Handmaiden and a couple of street smart mercenaries and scoundrels, he sets out to restore order and justice in the galaxy, by defeating the Sith and other evils that have plagued countless innocents for too long. But he does not do this for the greater good. He does this for himself. To find out about the past that he has forgotten.

Time will tell whether his goals change. There was a reason he was exiled. His dark past constantly haunts him. Will he face them? Will he be able to face them and not run away from the truth?

The saga continues...tune in next week....as the plot thickens...

And i love my Dark Angel. *muah*

:B

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

I shall go to sleep now...after this post

2005-03-15T02:52:00.000+08:00

I am sorry.

I have disrespected you by doubting you.

You are strong....but show me...for i cannot see it. I have been blind.

If it is space that is needed, then it is space you will have.

There...here is space.

Now the test for me begins.

I should be sleeping...but why?...i never get tired...never...

2005-03-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

I never seem to get tired.
I never seem to get the hints.
I never seem to realise that when a person says something they mean it.
I never seem to find anything wrong.
I never seem to realise that sometimes i do more harm than good.
I never seem to realise that i try too damn hard.
I never seem to realise what people are trying to tell me.
I never seem to realise that there are some things i cannot do.
I never seem to realise that i am only human.
Who the fuck do i think i am? Heh.
I never seem to realise that you are too.
I never seem to realise that i am tired.
I seem to realise that i never seemed to realise all these things.

I should be sleeping. But no. I must focus. Focus on letting go of angry thoughts, selfish thoughts, irritated thoughts, 'why didn't you tell me earlier' thoughts, 'i know it's us but i should have my say' thoughts, 'so u were acting?' thoughts.

Like trying to mend a broken vase, it's remains are left in a complicated mess. A mess i cannot possibly hope to repair. i pick up the pieces in my hands, only to have it cut me and release my grip; the porcelain chips smashing to the ground. Now i am conflicted. Should i tend to myself or the vase? Whilst my hand is still bleeding, i glance at the mess i have made. Motionless, the smooth white porcelain chips lay about in organized chaos, forming some sick twisted masterpiece. Tempted by the idea of mending it once again, i reach out for one of the larger shards. A sudden gust of wind abruptly snaps me from my dellusion, as if telling me that i have done all i could. Then it whispers in my ear.....'you cannot repair me...you cannot hope to...leave me alone before you cause more trouble'. Dismayed and crestfallen, i slump against the wall. A searing pain erupts from my skull. Throbbing and shouting, i clutch my forehead with great force. Slowly, surely, the pain fades. It floats out of my ears and becomes a dove. In a split second, it is gone. And i have understood. There is only so much i can do. The rest is up to her. The dove.

Let go of angry thoughts sean....let go of them....do not let them consume you.

Your head...not your heart.

I miss you.

2nd month.

-Mo0miE

Ooooooo Weeeeee!

2005-03-12T18:52:00.000+08:00

Yep. That's from the Hitch soundtrack. Thanks hun. :) I have to say u made me smile QUITE a lot by getting it. So now i'll lend you the CD to copy to your laptop. Lolz.

Skool seems to be good, esp. Writ Comm. Lolz. I shouldn't jinx that. So...i shan't say more.

Now that we've found love...what are we gonna do with it? ;)
(That's one song from the Hitch Soundtrack)

Btw....have i mentioned that Kevin James rocks...tt's Albert Brennamen for all those dickies who havn't seen that movie yet.

Getting back to the topic, what are we gonna do? Honestly, i don't know....because...well...i don't know and i can't tell from experience...because i don't have any. Pardon the mistakes that i make. I may be a slight perfectionist...and you may not want a perfect robot. But have i told you that i'm actually becoming a perfect imperfect cool nerd who's just living life with a wonderful girl that he smiles, laughs, worries, thinks, stresses and gets depressed with? It's not pretty. I'm not gonna deny it. I'm a realist. But when we smile and laugh...doesn't it just seem that everything else just flies away? Doesn't it feel like it's just us?

Most guys take you for granted. Well, i'm not like other guys. Can Jin, Jeremy or James vouch for that? Heh. I know words don't mean much...at least not as much as actions. So when days turn into months and months turn into years, u'll remember this post. And u'll remember why i wrote this post in the first place. And u'll notice that the way i treat you at that point of time in the future remains the same as the way i'm treating you right now.

I will stray from the path. Sure i will. But i'm relying on you to put me back on the path that we set off on in the first place. I am paranoid...but that's my nerd side talking. I have no clue about what girls want, or what they say when they actually mean something else. So bear with me when i become a total *insert squishing sound here*.

I need Hitch. Oh wait. No....i don't need him.

"What did you do?"

"Nothing....absolutely nothing.."

Albert didn't need him. Sure guys....shoot me down by saying that that's just a movie...but u know what they say...truth is stranger than fiction.

Do you know who i need?

I need you.

Simple as that.

:)

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

It's not you. Or me. It's us.

2005-03-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

Let's get through this ok?

It can never be you or me who takes the blame for everything. The sole reason that we're together explains enough as to how we should solve our problems.

Together.

Talking is always hard. And i don't mean on MSN. It helps..but only to a certain extent. Face is face is what i'm talking about. But we always seem to do other stuff when we're together other than talk about that. Notice i'm not saying 'me'. Well, maybe i should be the one to start a conversation about that topic more. And i thought we had an understanding today. Guess it needs a lot more work.

This is just one of the many trials we're facing. U're right about that. But need you need to know that u're not fighting this battle alone. And you did not bring this battle upon yourself. And if you do in the future, it sure as hell involves me, now that we're together. They say it takes a lot of work to make a relationship work. It sure as hell does. But why are people so focussed on getting it to work? Is it because they don't want to feel the misery and anger and pain of failure? If any of you reading said yes to that, well then, that's not the way true love works.

The answer is NO. It's because...for the simple reason that they don't want the OTHER individual to feel the misery and anger and pain of failure. And i know you know that you're a good person. In fact, too good a person at times. People see that as a weakness as use it to their advantage. I know you have gone through that. And i know you're not gonna forget any of that.
But i just read somewhere today that you should hate the act, but pity the individual who committed it, for he/she has fallen to the Dark side. ;)

True strength and power comes from within you. Believe in yourself. If you start to doubt your power, you give power to your doubts. People may have caused you to lose faith in yourself, by labelling you of things u're not. But i am here to give you that spirit back. It may not be what you hoped for, but it may be what you need in your life. Not to make me happy. But to make yourself happy. "You" is a word i'm sure u have hardly thought about. And it's time for me to tell you to start thinking about 'you'. Because you can only take care of others, when you first take care of yourself.

I'm glad we're talking it out. On msn, but i hope face to face more often. Honesty and truthfulness are important in a relationship. This is true.

Cheer up hun.

It's not about how busted a car is. Coz all you need is a good team of mechanics, and a bit of elbow grease to make it work again.

A lot better

2005-03-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

Thanks for understanding. I feel a whole lot better now. This may be just a small hurdle, but i'm sure glad that we managed to work together to overcome it. Sounds cheesy but yea.

Lovely day with you. Almost perfect.

Wished u'd mention your dream earlier though. >.<

But it was lovely.

Love you hun.

Peace...Out...

-Mo0miE

Rubbish

2005-02-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know half the stuff i'm writing. This is all shit. Please see me tomorrow. I may talk better face to face.

I don't want that pain. Please.

Apology of sorts

2005-02-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

Don't punch walls. You told me not to. So why are you doing it. I'm not even feeling anything right now. I know i'm too shocked after reading the post. Why would you think of such a thing.

"Walk away."

I'm a realist. But even i don't want to believe that. Please. please. PLEASE.

I was selfish. I am sorry. By sharing my opinions, and after replaying those few harmless 'opinions' of mine in my mind, i suddenly realised that i was thinking for myself.

I can't help you. I can't understand you. Not until time decides do so. I know this, and you know this. It cannot be helped. But still....i feel lousy and useless for not being able to...even if it is out of my control. I want to heal you and help you and save you and....i don't fucking know. I want to make you happy.

But i do bleed and i do have feelings. Some of them which i've kept so long inside they rarely surface. I can't put on the nice guy face all day. I do get jealous. I do get greedy. And i do get selfish. So i'm sorry.

Your point was taken. And i am sorry for being so selfish. Please don't scare me. I don't want to know that kind of pain. Not yet. Despondency maybe. Pain..please...not now.

I think the coffee mug shall be my friend for tonight. And a DVD of "The Last Samurai".

Peace Out? what? Ok...fine...Peace....Out...

"The world will still be broken in the morning..." - Logan Cale

How true.

Just so happens i'm just one of them...what do u call those? Ah..teenagers

2005-02-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

Am i am imitation of life?

The guy who pretends so well, i fool myself?

Somebody's thoughts really set me thinking. And perhaps later on...in about a few hours...i'll be thinking somemore.

Have i totally convinced myself that i'm alright? I am alright RIGHT? Do i really believe the things i say? Like 'only help people who helps themselves'?

Well how the fuck do i know Sean.

You're right Sean. How the fuck do YOU know...when I don't even know.

Yeah...that's right Sean...look out there. Look at all the people around you. You think they give a damn about your advice?

yea...they do don't they?

The world's not built that way.

I know...but i'd like to believe otherwise.

CHECK YOUR DEFINITION HERE. COZ IT SEEMS LIKE 'to believe' is 'to lie to oneself'. JUST STOP TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE. U'll only makes things worse.

Please...somebody...tell me that it really pays to be honest. Snap me out of this.

Be mindful of your thoughts Anakin...they betray you

2005-02-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

Well...here i am bloggin!...Sorry i havn't been updating in such a long time...Busy with...stuff...You know...work...games...my Dark Angel...*cough* *cough*...err...yar..>_> <_<>.> <.< >> <<...^^

My addiction for all things Star Wars has started again. And i have to say i have missed this feeling. Lolz. Watched Attack of the Clones yesterday on DVD. Thanks to my dad's friend, Lawrence, for bringing in a whole heap of DVDs that he needed to clear out from his house. Today i'm watching The Empire Strikes Back. It's old....but it's a timeless classic.

We are such geeks.

"Fear leads to Anger. Anger leads to Hate. Hate leads to SUFFERING!"

*chuckles*

We ARE such geeks.

Been spending quite a fair bit of time with you. Not one day passes where i don't try my best to spend all my effort to be with you. To see that smile of yours. Just to be around you. :)

The absence of a breeze really spoils a nice night out. But in the end....the sea breeze was right there accompanying us. heh. Sorry if i made you walk so much. >.< Singapore's getting way too small to get good spots for dates. Who the hell plays on the swings at 11 at night?! Apparantly Singaporeans do. -_-" Remember to bring sneakers next time. XD

Havn't been gaming much. Maybe it's coz of you. I don't know. Havn't been in the gaming mood this whole week. Felt like watching movies though. At home. Ah well. Nevermind that.

This is one of the rare posts where i don't share my viewpoints about stuff tt's been bugging me or making me think. Instead...i'm posting what i SHOULD be posting in blogs. Lolz.

I'm still kinda rusty at expressing my thoughts in words or on paper.

Touch is sometimes more appropriate.

I don't really know what to say now, coz my room's stuffy and i'm uncomfortable...lolz...but aiyah...i'll blog again soon.

Peace...Out

Hello other Sean...long time no see

2005-02-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

You've riled your ugly head again Sean.

But it's time for you to go back into me once again.

I'll never let you come out.

Although i'm not sure if i can safely do that under certain circumstances.

If you come out, the other Sean will start to be eaten away.

All i've worked so hard to become...gone...No..i will never let you have a say in what i do.

I want to have a talk with you again Sean....yes...let's talk.

This is how i feel about you..among all the good things that happened today

2005-02-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines Day?

Nope...don't think so. Just so happens something else greater falls on Valentines Day too. ;)

Happy one month hun. Heh. Love you. Can't really say much now can i? I'll have to show you what i mean. XD

In the meantime, here's a song that kinda expresses what i feel.

Grammy award winner, John Mayer, wrote this Song of the Year for 2005

"Daughters"
lyrics by John Mayer

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I canTo stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking awayNow she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

P.S Heh...finally had a song tt fit my blogskin...XD

Happy Chinese New Year folks

2005-02-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

Read the title of this post. There u go. Lolz....

I love my girl.

Peace...Out

Who do i side...hehe...

2005-02-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

You scored as True Neutral. A True Neutral person has two faces- either these people are merely apathetic, preferring to focus their minds on more important things, or these people truly believe in a balance of all things. To these people, there can be no light without some darkness. These people also have no dedication to, or intrinsic distrust of, laws.

True Neutral

70%

Lawful Good

65%

Neutral Good

55%

Lawful Evil

50%

Chaotic Good

50%

Lawful Neutral

45%

Chaotic Neutral

35%

Neutral Evil

35%

Chaotic Evil

30%

What is your Alignment?
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Say "I don't know" in an Irish accent...try it

2005-02-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

Twas a nice day spent with Asta. Tried to look pissed at her for being late. Failed horribly coz she didn't look at me. Lolz. Then she pointed out she was already in a bad mood and would've bitten my head off. >_> <_<...*whew*...lucky for that. Dinner is skippable. Don't feel bad for that. Lolz. Coz i spent that time with u. If there was anything i wished i would've done more though, it was to cheer you up as much as i could.

I have come to realise that i am perhaps movie critic material. NO MOVIE....i repeat NO MOVIE has moved me to tears before. I have no idea why. I do understand the movie...but while other pple tear during touching moments, i keep dead silent. Probably my way of 'tearing'. I don't know and i can never really tell unless people point it out to me. Finding Neverland was a nice movie. Simple, yet powerful. Touching, yet not overdoing it. Funny and charming. After i came out of that movie, i felt a lot lighter. Makes one go into a comtemplative mood.

And now thinking back on my life, i think i am one lucky guy. So many friends i know have so many problems, i feel that i am truely blessed. I'm a freethinker, but i do believe there is someone up there looking down on us from Heaven, watching whatever we do. Karma. That's what i believe in. It could be my luck, it could be my superstitions, or it could be the person up there looking down on me. I don't know. But i am thankful. I am thankful for all the problems that i have avoided, thankful for all the disasters i have come out off unscathed, thankful for all the wonderful friends: Jin, J, Perpz( I can see u guys being lifelong friends with me, and i'm god damn happy about that). Shit i'm getting emotional now. Wtf. I am thankful for the wonderful parents i have. Sorry for the times i've taken your love for granted. I know u care so much for me. I've grown to learn that your trust means much more to me than anything else in the world. Life has been good to me. Thank you life. *cries*

Through it all, i'm just happy that i've learned from my mistakes and other people's mistakes. I think i'm kinda surprised at myself for being grateful, when Life is still so cheery for me. Usually human nature forces us to realise this only in times of darkness and sorrow. I think maybe, just MAYBE, i know what u feel Jin. U and your parents. But the sad thing is that once i end this post, Life will go back to normal again, and this post will be at the back of my mind. Such is the mystery of human nature.

And to that one special girl, Asta, i just want to say that i've realised that i'm damned lucky to have you(considering i'm a n00b). And with the help of someone who pointed that fact out for me, i'll continue to treasure you. I'm a realist. I know it can never be 'forever' as they say. But what the fuck, at this point in time, let's give forever a chance at us, and perhaps in time, chance will give us forever as well.

I love you.

You make me smile.

Your hair.

Peace....Out...

Di di da da....

2005-02-04T01:04:00.001+08:00

Hum ba di di da da....di di da da do di da da.....

Teenagers. We are one colourful bunch of people. Volatile, dark, twisted. So far many people i know claim to have this side. They may believe they have a dark side....a mask hiding themselves from people, a curtain they draw up when they are vulnerable...teenagers perhaps epitomize the word 'Hypocrite'....but a thought to consider: What if u THINK u have a dark side, but truely don't? I don't think people truely know themselves. People are always not as bad as u think. U are always not as bad as U think. Give yourself and people a chance. Sure...there are bad people out there....but KNOWING it, and taking a chance on them is more important. Call me naive, call me foolish. All that is good and true is all around us. Just that society has led us to believe that all people are back stabbing, two timing, false fronted monsters. That is not true at all. I used to think i was dark and gloomy. What a shit load of crap that was. I just keep to myself tt's all. I just like to be alone sometimes. But hey...even if u claim to be a loner...in the end....humans are not made out that way. We seek comfort in company. We are not a solitary species. I truely believe it's just a phase. The only difference between me and the next fella is that i know it's just a phase( and i think i passed it), while he believes he's like tt and thinks he knows himself.

NOBODY ever truely knows themselves.

What i may be saying about myself may be crap too. I may just as dark and gloomy as i originally tot myself out to be. Heh...tt's life. I'll go on believing i'm not. It's a journey of faith and self belief. Tt's what i feel it is. U can very well change your opinions about something, and Life will never be the same. Life is NEVER EVER what u think it will be. Always know u'll be changing yourself and by doing so....your life as well. They say plan for the future....but how is that possible? U can't forsee the future....so technically u can't plan it out...U can only guess for the future. Tt's all. Nothing less. Nothing more. It's as simple as that. So...just live how u live everyday. Don't live it like it's your last day everyday...tt's insane. Just live. Life is always full of surprises....but don't expect it to be a hoot either. Black and White. Ying and Yang. Good and Evil. Men and Women. Opposites. Life. Paradox.

Peace.....Out...

Band of the Year

2005-01-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

"Ladies and Gentlemen, would you please put your hands together for the Band of the Year......LIFEHOUUUUUUSE!!!!"

Tt'll be a dream come true. But dreams do come true. I was a fan of Hooba WAY BEFORE "The Reason" came along. I'm not some music trend follower. I don't think many pple are. But yea....just like to point tt out. I hate pple thinking tt i'm a hooba fan coz of tt song. It's the only song tt's different from their entire album.

*shivers*....takes the cake of the most overplayed song in 2004.

But i'm glad tt that's happening. I'd rather they be bloody popular than unknown. I'm glad for them, although i wished they signed my cds b4 they left the concert. T.T

Ah well. The next band i hope becomes successful. Lifehouse. I'm praying for their success, and i hope there are pple out there who pray for them too. Just like what happened to Hooba. Look at them now.

Yesterday i went to celebrate Lionel's birthday with him(duh), Asta and Asta's sister. Damn funny how we always end up with weird groupings..>_> <_<...yar...(omg...i'm starting to type like u Jin...DAMN U!!!) An ipod's JUST an ipod...what's the big deal....seriously..lolz...imagine the godlike graphics card or guitar or amp u can buy with all tt money. Don't kill me....just my tots...lolz

NYDC has funky music selection. Damned nice. Esp tt song. >.<

Asta paid for most of the dinner. Now she doesn't have enuff cash. T.T I am saddenized. Coz i'm also broke. Damn my stewpid spending habits. Now we're both grounded. T.T Miss you. Funny i'd say this...but i wish we had skool. Heh. Can't realli stand to be away from you for too long. Seriously. For real.

I think tt's it. I'm supposed to be studying for Webgraph, but heck it. I'm pro at it..XD...just kidding. I'm ok lah...won't die. I think this week i'm gonna WoW a bit more. Lolz...DotA is addictive...but i'm laggin behind in WoW...and i think Jin won't like tt...lolz...Actually I won't like it. Coz den i can't quest with u...lolz

Songs of the moment

John Mayer- Your body is wonderland (>.<)
Lifehouse- Somebody else's song
Lifehouse- Trying

My 2 cents (parental advisory)

2005-01-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

The next few lines will be littered with vulgarities that i am not accustomed to using in this blog. Please forgive me...but i have to let it out...

Fuck the fucking pug fugly people with sick, twisted, demented hearts that take advantage of the nice people in the world. The sweet irony is that i wish some of you would just die. Haha...it's kinda like the question...Would u kill Hitler? Would the death of one person be justifiable for the lives of millions? But isn't killing wrong? Would u kill Hitler if u knew that doin so would result in the saving of millions of lives? Or would you uphold your morals and refrain from killing EVEN Hitler?

Slight deviation from the main topic: Fuck you ugly people. How do i define ugly. An ugly heart. That's how i define ugly. You think the world is your supermarket where u can just open a pack of Oreo cookies from the box and leave the fucking box half uneaten. You better fucking finish what u started. That fucking conman that acted as a Red Cross rep for the Tsunami relief fund better watch out if i see him on the streets.

Do you know what's the rarest commodity on Earth? I'll tell u. Trust. Do u have any idea how rare it is to find it. Even if you do, u have to polish it and refine it. One small miscut could destroy Trust completely. People's hearts get broken. Permanent emotional scars. Fuck all you ugly pple out there. Truely, u don't deserve to live. Ok...mabbe you do. But u don't deserve much more than living. Halfdead sounds nice.

I'm going to sound like some freakin United Nations rep or something...but seriously...y do all the nice pple get left behind...isn't the big guy up there watching? Isn't karma in play?...Or do we have to pay a monthly subscription?

*HELLO HELLO...KNOCKING ON HEAVEN'S DOOR*

I have not been peeved in a long time. But i crack everytime i see my Dark Angel, my friends, family and kin, and every god damn person on the planet being taken advantage of by some dickweed who thinks they have the right to do whatever they want.

"Get the fuck off my lawn. And stay fucked off"

Even right now as i am typing this, i am feeling angry. I don't mind suffering for those i care for if i know ultimately it'll work out in the end. I really hope it does in this case.

"I'll show u the side of u u never thought u'd see again hun"

I'll make a promise to that.

Peace...Out....

Just like in the movies...mindblowing...

2005-01-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

Played lan....dinner at Marche....watched Elektra...walked to Esplanade...and what can i say...nothing...it was indescribable.

Of course, it was all spent with my special Dark Angel. Under the dark night sky, with the pale moon shining down mystery and sweet sweet hints of passion. The etched silhouette of trees, swaying in the gentle sea breeze. For a small brightly lit country like Singapore, there sure were a lot of stars out that night. Orion's Belt was what she spotted, and i laughed at the thought that she knew Astrology. I still don't know much about her, and i'm looking forward to learning. Strangely enough, her smell wasn't drowned out by the fresh sea breeze. Instead, it seemed to accompany her. Her smell wafting around me, making me drunk. We sat down at a bench overlooking East Coast and the Benjamin Shears Bridge. Magical. Just magical. Only we know.

*cracks a lop sided grin*

" This is not some RPG..."

" I know "

Peace...Out...

Breathe

2005-01-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

Breathless...
I keep thinking about that moment...
Feeling was and still is...
When we...
I couldn't react...
Felt what you were feeling...
I'm a n00b...
:B

Peace...Out...

I love the.....

2005-01-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

Smell of your hair.
Spirit in your eyes.
Touch of your skin.
Smile that you have.
Sound of your voice.

Person that is you.

Gosh, you grow on me... So many of the songs that i like to listen to are starting to come through with meanings i never thought i'd know if i wasn't with you. Keep on smiling.

Time slows for lovers. Because even Time cannot resist Love itself. It has to feel Love again, and when it does stop to smell the roses, that is how the term 'love for eternity' comes about. It may not be eternity, but for that special moment, it sure damn feels like it.

Peace....Out

A certain singer by the name of Sting.....

2005-01-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

What is it that we Josephians have that makes us to look up to our seniors more so than any other skool in Singapore? Every Josephian that i know of is so patriotic to the school, and for that i am proud to be one. Honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i truely am. All the Josephians i have ever met who are my friends, my school, my class, the old boys like Lionel, Mr. Pat Wong and many more. Oh yea...and Asta's dad too...i think....>.> <.<...lolz

They influence me....esp the OLD old boys....like Pat wong....must be a connection or something...Well...here's something nice a certain Writ Comm lecturer introduced to our class. U'll like it fellas....i know it....

Fragile

From the album Nothing Like the Sun
(A&M)Words and music by Sting

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the color of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence
and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are

Stingetc.com is © 1995 - 2005 by Marisa Meisters

New blog skin...heh

2005-01-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna TRY to modify this skin....Darn it...i wish i knew html....i'll make the most wicked blog skins u guys will ever see.....trust me...heh...Peace....Out

Surreal day...

2004-12-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

It's been a weird day. Such a slow, relaxing, drowzy, sleepy day. Or it could be that i'm taking medication to dull the effects of the nasty cold, fever, headache combo that i got after shopping at Junction 8. The same day i went to your place for that fab-o-lous xmas party. heh...tt was nice. Carolling was funny...lolz....u were shy to say the least. Wished i had some training in my vocals....i love to sing...but sadly, i think i'm only good to my own ears....heh...we'll see.

Good news is that i'm feeling a lot better than yesterday, when i was strugglin to sleep during lectures. Yes...u heard me right...i wanted to sleep. But the freakin lecture theatre smelled of turpentine and was crowded with restless students. Nearly fell off the flexible plastic backing that they have for the lecture seats. God i love sitting in the last row in the extreme last seat at the corner....leg space...head space...haha...if only i wasn't sick...But hey...it's not all tt bad. I did have lunch with u...tt was realli nice. And i did send u off....lolz...Taxis...grrr. Just thought i'd mention that I havn't slept for such a long period of time. I probably think i've clocked up about 18 hours of slp since 9.30p.m yesterday. Woke up at 12, had a peanut butter sandwich, watched TV...had lunch round 2....came back...slept till 6....ok...so about 16 hours....still a hell of a lot. I'll be back tml pple.

On sunday...went out with Jin and J...haha...it was nice...only tt u couldn't stay longer Jin...but we understand lah...lolz...went to buy movie ticks for Ocean's Twelve or any other good movie...but found tt we had just missed the 5.20 one...damned...and it was already 6...and Jin had to be back home by 7. So what did we do?...haha...played Dai De at the waiting area till 6.45. Lolz...finally familiarised myself with Dai De again...i've hardly ever played it. But now...i can't wait! Always helps to have a lousy amatuer magician with a deck of cards...lolz..hard to think tt nobody thinks about bringing a deck of cards in case the outing gets boring...i shall do tt everytime now. After u left Jin, me and J had dinner at BK...and talked about a lot of stuff that 17 year olds won't talk about...lolz. Maturity, Poly, JC....class politics in general. Ah...i don't know...mabbe 17 year olds do talk about it...i dunno. But i liked it. Those stoning, thinking conversations that realli get u worked up and passionate about. Like those 'ever wonder y?' questions.

I'm listening to "Imitation of Life" by R.E.M now. Such an upbeat song...makes u wanna smile about life. Heh...i like it....makes me feel relaxed and carefree.

'u shouldn't care what people think of u'.

Cliche as that may sound, the first person who said didn't seem to have a lot of friends. I could be wrong, but if i modified this saying, it would be something like this, 'You shouldn't care what MOST people think of you'. I strongly disagree with the fact that we should just ignore everybody's view on us. Surely you do care about what your close friends and your family members think of u right? The answer is a resounding y e s. Who would want to be shunned by his/her family members or friends? Is that person even human? It is in our nature to love and be loved. Human beings need company. The less the number, the closer the relationship. 2 is the smallest, but most intimate number in the realm of humans. Basically what i'm trying to say is that i would seriously be worried if i find my good friends turning away from me and such...because i do want their respect and their friendship...because we have spent time forging that trust...family members are no exception. But to all of you people who claim to know me and think i'm a dickweed, buzzoff.

*Gives 'up-yours' sign*

I'm sure if u allowed me to get to know u better we would both change our views of one another( for the better hopefully). But if u don't give me that chance, then i won't give u the liberty of me caring about what u think. Makes a lot of sense doesn't it?...Haha...i think it does.

Just felt like airing my views....today's just been a nice slow day. A kinda day that i like....crowd-less...noise-less....but w/o a special person i'd like to spend it with. I miss you hun, but hey...i'll see u tomorrow yeah? ;B

"Whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there, with open arms and open eyes, yeah."
-Incubus ( ^^m rock on!)

I'm happy and excited as to what will come next!

2004-12-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

Something good has happened to me today. I was scared if it didn't work....but i was happy that it did turn out well in the end. In many ways we'll never know where Life may want us to go...but i hope it doesn't change much for THIS. I have much to learn.

*Smiles*

Peace...Out....

Cue in soft background music of Hotel California

2004-12-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

I find it hard to make titles for my posts. So now i just make post titles out of whatever i'm doing. In this case listening to Hotel California. Pretty early for me to be posting at this time....but hey...i feel like it...plus i can't play WoW so much now...lolz...got to lvl25 today...and i finally wore my Double metal Coif( Chainmail hood in layman terms :P)...now i'm looking more like a Paladin.

Tml i have J Lo's lession....heh...and after tt a 4o8 class gathering...heh...it's gonna be fun...i hope. Besides that, the only thing i'm worried about now is getting my textbooks for the lessons...i'm missing them and i havn't bought them...damn me for being so lazy...but hey...i am XD.

Hey hey hey..waddaya know...i'm doin a normal post...not like the one i made b4...haha...guess this blog's a mix then..Things are kinda relaxing now...it'll be nicer if i could play more WoW...but i'm not complaining...playing too much gets boring after a while too....so i'd rather play it at small intervals....but the weekends are an exception.

Never realli tot of it...but i'm still such a boy at heart. I'm still so addicted to games and cards...it's funny. Well...let's see....i like dif stuff now too...but much of what i love is the same. *shrugs*...i like tt....i'm not changing much...though i like some aspects of the growing me. My apprieciation for music...for the arts...for certain aspects of history...my interest in learning the guitar...wished i picked tt up earlier...

I would hate to change my interests....i would jump over a cliff if i ever hated PC games...or Card games....i would just like to add on to my interests....coz i see quite a few of my frens...they introduce me to stuff and then after a while they change completely and start to take interest in another hobby...it's kinda sad...coz in a way...u kinda lose a fren while u're having fun...like one less person to share tt crazy laughter and fun with...pple change...tt's def true....but it's not particularly nice when u liked them the way they were, and they suddenly do a 180 on you.

Whelps...i think tt's all i have to say for today...till then...keep doin what u love...Peace..Out..

Nonsensical Redundancies of redundancies

2004-12-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

Hey...it's me again. I kinda just realised that my blog's just one whole bunch of nonsense that makes hardly makes any sense. I also just realised that it's not that i'm getting shallower in thought, it's just that i don't express my thoughts and opinions as well as i do in person. That could be the case. And all this while i was worrying myself silly that i was changing. I probably am, but it definitely wouldn't be my habit of thinking bout stuff alot. It's ironic....coz all this while, i was trying to figure out y i'm not as deep as i used to be....but the answer was staring me in the face all along. The fact that i WAS trying to figure it out showed that i actually still have that habit of thinking deeply about stuff. Haha....and i figured it out coming from the toilet...lolz...life is weird...

And another thing i realised.....i don't realli use this blog like a diary...it's prob like a place i type out stuff i feel like sorting out and analysing...or letting other pple know....it's kinda like typing to yourself...so u know what u're thinking....it's weird....but if u could imagine...it's like talking to yourself...to understand yourself clearer....sorta like...."i feel down."...den when i read it...i start to think..."sean, u feel down."...something like tt...lolz...it's not clear...but i hope it gets my point across...ahh well...i just blogged this down to make myself clear...not much of a post...but i promise i'll try to make most of them sound normal...lolz...Peace..Out...

"The world will still be broken in the morning."- Logan Cale, Dark Angel

I think God can explain

2004-12-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

By Splendor(if i spelled it wrongly then i'm deeply apologetic...XP)

Songs like these make me think back on the times...yet make me feel like moving forward. Don't know if tt makes sense...coz right now i'm typing in a very uncomfortable position...lemme change position...ahh...much better...

Anywayz...goin back to the topic...hearing songs like these make me wonder.." Wow...how long has it been since i've heard this song? What does it remind me of? Can i still remember the song itself?" Then if i do start to hum or sing it...i'll slowly get back the lyrics into my head...then i start to think...oh yea...i'd better go buy the album or d/l their song...b4 i forget those heavenly tunes....lost forever in time...it's such a pity...i wonder how many good song's i've forgotten...But what concerns me now is that there aren't many good songs out there now...not for a long time....The best songs were from when i was sec 1 or 2....yea...which is around the same time the mentioned song came out in an album which my fren still hasn't returned to me....grrrr...

Just felt like blogging something online...to keep everybody from being bored shitless from visiting my blog with nothing on everyday...lolz... U could call this my 'cleaning the dust off my blog' post.

World of Warcraft...the 3 words to happiness

2004-12-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

I'm happy tt i got WoW....but dreading skool tml....

I wish to start anew with pple i ticked off....start off fresh....tt's all i'm asking...thx

And i was thinking to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell...but still those voices are calling from far away....

2004-11-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

Finally.....it's close to one month since i've last updated....heh....i guess i just couldn't be bothered. Ah but now i shall, due to pple asking me to update. Lolz. Well first things first, i STILL feel that the holidays are SHORT..YES..SHORT...now that World of Warcraft is going to be delivered....i wish that the holidays were longer...so i could game more and spend more time with my friends.

I wouldn't say that my holidays were entirely fruitful, i mean, all holidays seem to drag on at the end, the ever nagging feeling at the back of your head, that feeling that u have to get up early, hand up projects, and study once again. I will miss this holiday....as that next long one will be in March. Till then i'll work towards it...so that i can enjoy it once time decides to grant me the month of March.

However, i did enjoy my holiday. Sadly, i don't reflect on my thoughts as much as i use to. I'm not sure if tt's good or bad. Was i thinking too much last time?...Was i thinking just enought last time?...I'll never know for sure. But what the hell am i talking about? What should i think about? It's the freakin holidays! there should be nothing to think about! Ah...sheesh...this is me rambling aimlessly again in my blog.

What did i do after my trip?...hmmm...i can't really recall....everything's been a series of sleepless nights....lazy mornings and nothing afternoons. Seems as though the jet lag i caught became a habit. Trying to change tt now....or i'll suffer eternally when skool reopens. Well...wouldn't call the time after the trip nothing afternoons. Many a time was spent at perpz or kain's house....laughs echoing the hallways and corriders of the house. gaming...magic...magic tricks...haha...the stuff that keeps me going during skool and the stuff that occupies me during the holidays. Not forgetting my elec guitar, which i plan to apply a spanking new vinyl on. Though i'm not sure what to put on it...planning to cut it out myself and stick it on....hope it looks dope by the time i'm done with it. Learned Friday Night by The Darkness, and currently learning Smooth by Santana fea. Rob Thomas. Oh yea...i love this song....and the feeling was incredible to be able to pull off the solos. Still in the process of learning the song. Too many solos...>_<...but i'll cope...eventually...lolz.

Had a couple of outings with J and James, and on one occasion, happened to meet He Jia along the way. Haha...had good ol' chicken rice and den Tao Hui at Dhoby Ghaut...such a refreshing change from the overcharged food at Orchard. Singapore is getting boring...tt's one thing for sure. Outings are so limited to only a few places. I wish there were places to just sit and chill and talk IN Orchard...easy?...oh no...lolz...what if i say NOT CROWDED?...lolz...can't realli find any nice place like tt anymore there. Tt's y i enjoy Serene(or around it), Thompson Plaza...just all those places where the food is great and the pple are minimal. I hate crowds..tt's one thing for sure. Stayed over at perpz place too. Sorry folks...just typing in anything that comes into my head, so forgive me if this post doesn't seem organized.

Hmm...perphaps that thing tt took most of my attention was to get a copy of WoW...prefrerably Collector's Edition b4 everyone else in S'pore could...well guess tt didn't happen...and i'm NOT trusting any local game shops much anymore...tt's one thing for sure...pre orders my ass.....might as well not even order.

Urgh...i think i'm gonna stop now...can't remember anymore stuff...but i'll blog again tml...Peace...Out

i'm excited....New York, New York...the city so nice...they named it twice

2004-10-29T19:34:00.000+08:00

wowee!...i'm headin overseas ya'll....cya in a few....i'll be back round 12th nov....hoping for good results in MCM....if there's anything u wanna contact me about....mail me...haha....not realli excited now...but it'll set in tml when i wake up...haha....the Big Apple...yay!...i'm so happy...i'm gonna jam a bit later on...

Well...today played a bit of MTG with James and Perpz...quite a fun drafting blue black deck...with a few nasty combos..haha....even though i lost games...i didn't realli feel bad...coz i played out all my cards and combos...took risks...quite fun...not like my usual strategy...which is to pump up creatures...quite cool....thinkin of making a proper deck like tt....

Played a bit of guit b4 i went to meet up with them...feels good to jam...haha..yay...forming into a habit...something about playing music.....music that u listen to on the radio tt feels so good...like u are something....u're create something out from nothing....esp for me....as i consider myself having an addiction to good and refreshing music....coz now i know how much effort it takes into making music...it's an art...yes it is...i know tt....but it takes skill....haha...but i bet u all already know tt....just tt now i think twice bout saying 'omg...this song sucks man'...unless it realli has no rhythmn and th lyrics mean nothing....lolz....

I hope the other peepz who are goin on holidays or not....just staying at home...well i hope they enjoy theirs as well....both ways we all win...haha....enjoy your game...enjoy your music...enjoy your trip to Korea...haha...enjoy your new clothes...but most of all...enjoy your time with good friends and your family.....well...i gtg pack my stuff!...cya inna few peepz!...Peace...Out....

Oooohhh whyyy guess i should have told her.....i though she knew....

2004-10-27T02:32:00.000+08:00

You are Sakuya Kira.The reincarnation of the Alexial's sword
Nanasatuya. The sword is really Lucifer's soul
trapped in it. Kira died in a car crash but
Lucifer struck a deal with him so that they may
live in the same body. He is mysterious and may
seem emotionless. He is however very caring and
loyal to his friends.
You are loyal and caring despite what you may seem
to be. Cool and more like a big brother figure
to some.

Which Angel Sanctuary are you?
brought to you by

And she rolls the window down.....and she talks over the sound...

2004-10-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

Heya peepz...it's been a dope day today....went to perpz house...played some MapleStory...ok... A LOT of Maplestory...lolz...talked cock....laughed a fair bit...ordered in KFC...snapped up in record time i think...came home at 10.10?...lolz....Criticizing the DJs in 98.7...lolz...darned funny....

I like these typa days...only one thing on your 'to do' list....and tt's just to have a good time. So carefree....so relaxing..and the only thing bothering you is what card to put in your 'to be made' Kamigawa deck....lolz...yepz...i'll miss these days when the term starts again...but tt's not to say i don't miss the skool days too...skool days are fun...but this still beats it anytime....

Nothing much goin through my head at the moment...just singin along to "Why Georgia" by John Mayer...this fella's a genius.....together with Jason Mraz....i'm beginning to think tt anything tt starts with a J is good in my life...i found my lucky alphabet...lolz...just look at my frens...lolz..the 3Js(Jin, Jeremy, James)....haha...i don't know how many times i've mentioned u b4 in my blog....and besides u fellas....lolz...there's of course other peepz...but u all are up there on my list.

And also want to give a shout out to my very good, funny in a sarcastic/spastic way friend whose always been the fella i get my games from. Yes...it's P32PiE himself...haha...i know he doesn't want this name to be disclosed...so i won't...lolz...i think the 3Js would know who i'm talking bout.

He's made me into the gamer i am today...and i'm proud of it..lolz...Magic...Raw Deal...the card games...Winning Eleven...PS2 Games....and of course...PC games...GTA:III....GTA:VC...CS...HL...TFC....(many more of course..but i'll only name a few)and now MS.....haha....u my G man...lolz....I've never mentioned him b4...but we have crazy laughs together...bout anything...lolz...stewpid stuff....he's the fella i go to when i just wanna stone and have real fun....not tt i don't have fun with u guys man...lolz..it's just a gamer thing...lolz........Francis...not forgetting u too man....u the same here...haha...though i wished i got to know u earlier in SJI...

He's a close friend of mine...even a best friend i believe...in a dif way to u 3Js....But one thing remains clear....all of u rock....just lettin u know tt...haha...Peace...Out...

2.41 in the morning wipe the sleep from my eyes...lolz...

2004-10-24T02:40:00.000+08:00

Heya peepz...haha..wow...yesterday slept at 5..now it's 2.41...manz.....the holidays are screwing my slping habits...lolz...but funny thing is a don't feel tired...lolz...dunno man...it's like i onli need..oh wait...yea..i woke up at 11...lolz..ok....so about 6 hours of slp...

Haiz...long time since i've posted....whelps...been kinda enjoying life...having a nice stroll with time...hours pass by slowly...while i'm enjoying it...u know how they say tt times passes u by fast when u're having fun?..well...after MCM..nothing seems fast...lolz...

Playing a game called Maple Story now..Jin go check it out...it's GB and Ragnarok mixed!!...XD...
The webbie's www.mapleglobal.com. go check it out!....i wanna c u online!!! long time since we've gamed together....

Moving on to music...I just learned 1985 by Bowling for Soup today...it's a kick ass song man...and easy to play!!...tt's the nicest part!!...haha...good ol' palm muting...sounds so groovy...and i'm starting to get the hang with my fingerings now..getting into the mood...moving with the music...feeling the music...my movements....esp fingerings are def. a lot better and a lot more relaxed...and as a result...I Believe in a thing called Love by The Darkness is progressing very smoothly...in fact i onli have the insane shredding solo to do!!! WOW...lolz..haha...still havn't even touched Slash's Sweet Child O' Mine solo...the last part...i think i'll do tt like in 2 years time..haha...mabbe perform it...wad..tt would be dope..in the meantime...i'm jam to simpler yet equally catchy songs...like those mentioned above....Stuff tt i'm listening to would be old stuff...sides those above..lolz...stuff liek One More Time- Daft Punk......Take Me Out- Franz Ferdinand.....Wanting to buy a few cds...like John mayer's A Room For Squares..haha...funny how tt reminds me of stuff...hmm..O and err his other album....Heavier Things is it?..can't remember...Sides tt i can't remember...but def. more than 2 albums...lolz...buy them all at one shot...

Havn't seen my NP classies for a fair bit now....haha...been goin out with Perpz, Kain, J, James...the likes...me Gs...haha...ya know....fo' shizzle ma nizzle...haha....chill...Must go out arh Danny!...lolz...lanning or something...but glad to see u've been happy too...XD...

Plans for holidays..
1) Train with my elec yamaha guit(be a LOT better when skool reopens)
2)Learn many new songs
3)Build a new Kamigawa deck...wicked rares i have..lolz..all white samurais...and i didn't even like buy them seperately..somebody up there wants me to make a deck like tt...lolz...i just know it...lolz..(Jin i took up MTG again...together with James and co.) XD
4)Achieve great heights in MapleStory(hope to see u in there too Jin)XD
5)Tennis(nuff said..lolz)
6)Cycling(get reaquainted with my kampong..esp East Coast Park..Benjamin Shears..tt special spot...haha...memories...)
7)SLEEP PROPERLY

lolz..okie...gonna slp now..haha...Nitez ya'll..Peace..Out...

Lolz...

2004-10-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

You are Mitsurugi -
Both mysterious and attractive, you captivate people with the fact that you seem to begood at everything! Spending quiet moments with a friend and talking about what life means to you is your ideal situation. You don't like to stand out very much and you seem to be more old-fashionedthan modern, but when you do take the spotlight -- you command the floor!

Which Soul Calibur character are you?

this quiz was made by david park I don't even play Soul Caliber.....lolz....just doin this quiz for funn....haha....Peace..Out....

Guess who's back

2004-10-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

Decided to come back...on an account of a close friend...yea...still got some shit goin down with this blog...haha...but it's all slowing down...whatever it is...it's ok....

Plus i think the others i've used don't fit right..this one feels right...

Well....played pool with J and James yesterday..until 12....feels good to be with u guys again...catching up...being myself...haha....enjoyable day tt...not to mention an over the top sensation of highness i got from some unexpected results....haha...Danny boy...well done man...hehe....things are lookin up i must say...though i can't say the same for the variety of movies we got now...sheesh....only decent movies were The Terminal and Dodgeball...which both are wicked btw...the rest just reek....can't wait for some nicer ones to come out...in the meantime...it's back to some intensive guitar and pool training...and not forgetting the daily joustling session with the mouse...lolz...

Ahhhhhh....this is the life....what else can i add?....Well....somebody from down under would be nice...haha....see ya soon man....Think i'm gonna start watching my Dark Angel epis again...god i love my DVDs...yesh i do...lolz....i may or may not watch them...but to even have trouble deciding over such a small matter only indicates how much time has been opened up after most of our projects....and *ahem*...exam is over...lolz

Can't say i'm looking forward to next semester just yet..haha..havn't had my fair share of good ol' fun ...the final projects this time round have been alright...sa'll good man....nice grps...nice workin together...wouldn't mind workin with u guys again...haha...yea...but next sems a whole dif set of mods...OH YEAHHH...DJ in da house...lolz...nah..maybe not...we'll see...lolz...got lots of stuff to say...but for now..Peace..Out...

Hmm...what do u think?...haha

2004-10-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

You are green. Perhaps one of the most balanced of
all the colors. By balanced, I mean balanced
in both bad and good parts. Let me elaborate:
You're a natural, and somewhat superficial
person. You're extremely generous, but, to add
to the confusion, you're frugal and stingy.
You're a forgiving, but jealous person. You're
imaginative, but still logical. At sometimes,
you're a complete neat-freak, and other times,
you're a total slob. You're very stable, but
undependable. But onto the other traits that
are associated with this color... You're a
stubborn person, simply put. Do you believe in
Feng Shui? Green is closely related to the
thought of having a balanced environment, you
know. When in a bad situation, you're
painfully pessimistic, and when you're in a
good situation, you're extremely optimistic. A
fairly outgoing and amused person, you enjoy
talking to people, and hearing their thoughts
on different things. As a plus, when people
hang around you, it seems like time passes by
all the more quickly.

What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)

Hmm...i think everything except for the painfully pessimistic part is kinda untrue...and i don't think i'm stingy...in fact....i think i'm kinda of a easy going guy.....as in making decisions...i'm fine with anything so long as it has no dire consequences...Peace...Out

Tired...sleepy...but contented....

2004-09-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

Well...it's 11.21p.m....and it's dead quiet in my house....just finished readin your post jin...made lots of sense...mabbe it's the late nights calls that make us feel this way...i don't know...well...just go read my reply...lolz....

So relaxing right now...tml i have soccer practice...and a speech outline to do with dan...tml's gonna have a slower more enjoyable pace of doin work.....but for today...it was bloody busy...and mightly unpleasant at the start of the day...medsoc lecture was good...had a lot of tips for the final exam...everything was smooth sailing...until i ordered milo at SIM....bloody freakin hell...for some reason...i couldn't hold the cup properly....so while halfway drinking...the bloomin cup exploded in a sea of brown all over my shirt and jeans....wadda day to wear white....geez....and my jeans stank of milo all the way....until i came home from Gail's house making frens with Mr. Bauhaus...Miraculously, my shirt was made of some sort of weird semi-football jersey material...so it was almost waterproof...under the tap....all the milo washed off...very cool...but the material didn't dry very fast...in fact...it only dried up after lvp tutorial....yea man....cold...lolz

What realli made my day was the results for lvp camera/editing test and project one....got an A for project one...and i think a 9.45/10?.....damned cool...super high after tt...and had the inspiration to work somemore on Bauhaus...my grp's smashing btw....bloody power....i feel like i'm doing nothing at all...lolz....Well....i do have the concept and stuff for the model....wrote it out....and the blueprints for it...but tt's bout it...wished i could've done more bout the designs for the posters and invitation cards...but nice work guys....it's gonna pay off

So far i think tt's bout it....i think....THEY ARE WATCHING!!...lolz.....some people know what i'm talking bout rite Mr M?...lolz...had to say tt....Peace...Out

I'm still here....see what i mean when i don't have a blog?..lolz

2004-09-12T16:20:00.000+08:00

It's been like what..one month?...lolz...haha...see!...i told u i wouldn't be bloggin too often...even though i may be online...coz i can't be bothered....can't exactly remember what happened last month...life just passes by...last month's been fun...and busy...and worrying...it's been life to put it simply...lolz... Graph comm project Typography...and Lvp project 1...tt's about the big stuff in skool...sides tt mabbe speech comm assessed speech 3...to my fellas from SJI...i apologise for talkin all this gibberish...i just have to type it out to tell myself tt i'm blogging something worth bloggin...instead of spouting nonsensical rubbish.

Got i fair bit of work to do tml.....have to get stuff done by tml....and my guit class is tml too....How to balance...How to balance...How to balance....ahah...tt'll be tml's prob....right now my prob is to aptly express my feeling about what's happened in the past month...and to type it out as accurately as i possibly can. Well....i'm kinda happy with my lvp project...i think my team's editing is great...dunno bout my camera work...lolz...i hope they think it's up to standard...what else...hmmm...nothin much....today i played tennis today...man...it resparked my interest for tt sport man....tennis is so fun...esp when u hit the sweet spot on the racket...awww...feels good...haha...Played with Robyn, Sue En and Lynn...kinda pooped after 3 hours or so..haha...my fitness is terrible...either tt or the sun was realli realli hot...it's the 12 o clock sun...waddaya'll think?...lolz

Been gaming quite a fair bit...not now...but the past month...playin games like Doom 3..which is a real 'feel' kinda fps game...very 'in the action'...movie-ish like kinda experience...sides that Enemy Territory...i'm not terribly good at it though i must say....it's a mod for Return to Castle Wolfenstein.....free too...take note...lolz...Another game would be Runescape...yea i know...'what a stewpid ass game...lolz...'...well...yea i agree the graphics sucks...but in the new version it ain't half that bad. U should try it out Jin...quite fun....

Music wise...nothin much realli catching me....songs from slow rock band of the 80s...those monster ballad kinda songs...real nice....like Warrant- I saw Red, Lifehouse- Love of a lifetime. However....i still have a rock edge and true enuff...there is a song i realli like from a band called Alter Bridge. It's called Open your eyes. Apparantly it's actually the whole crew from the disbanded band Creed...minus the lead singer....yea..they changed leads...and somehow...this fella realli realli REALLI looks like Cobain..Kurt Cobain...u know....neck length blond hair...unshaven...messed up look...lolz..and the guit solo in tt song is too too wicked...Oh yea tt reminds me....i'm learnin the last part of Slash's solo in Sweet Child O' Mine...FINALLY...can't wait to finish it....BOOYAH!!...

Oh well...tt's bout it...i think...i'm blog more stuff on if i feel like it's important and worth spending the trouble typing out...haha....in the meantime...Peace...Out

Holy crap...and i tot the weeks b4 were busy....

2004-08-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

Omg....and i tot the last few weeks were bad....this whole week has been either a test, or a project deadline....or a project meeting....not tt i detest it...no...i mean...it's necessary to do so...unless u want your ass to be fired into oblivion.....but...it was mentally and physically draining, always having to plan stuff ahead of time...or else u'll realise u screwed yourself and your group in the ass...and that u let them down...i'm trying hard not to do so...and so far, i've been safe......I'm kinda happy that we have National Day now....at least next week's not gonna be as hectic as compared to this week's.

On another topic...i've had my mind on something....something's that been constantly eating at me...something that goes against my very character....something that distracts me from my current goals...something beautiful....Won't say what it is....it's just beautiful...and dangerous at the same time....to tame it would be a challenge....and challenge of time...and test of patience...and determination...and skin...haha....yea skin...

Still on tt topic...it's been chocking my mind full of tots b4 i go off to slp these few nights....but when i wake up in the morning...it's all gone....I'll be waiting for that chance....in the meantime...i'll continue to stalk....to follow....to guide...to aid....to watch over this beautiful creature...this o so wild beauty.

Moving on...pardon me for having a long post...i need to recap stuff since i havn't blogged for one week plus....gonna get an amp next week...which would cost me around 200 clams again...but i'm dying to get it....*drool*....plus i'm so close to 'mastering'...if u could call it that....'mastering' Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns and Roses...all tt's left is Slash's FINAL solo...which is gonna be tough...but so far i'm handling ok...so i'm thinkin this should be fun...

Besides that...hmm..nothin much...i think my pool's gettin better...lolz....yea i think so...kinda cool lah...but i still suck to the core at bowling....Playing Jedi Academy again....waiting for GTA: San Andreas to come out...late this year...*sob*...until then...i'll look for good games to help me pass the time...though i think tt wouldn't be realli necessary with my guitar and 'soon to be purchased' amp...ahah....

Am i missing anything?...Hmm....oh yea...the music i'm listening to now...kinda like old stuff and realli new stuff at the same time?...

1) Duran Duran- Come Undone (sounds kinda like Desert Rose by Sting..but with a nice beat)
2) Switch Foot- Redemption (d/led this song by accident actually...but it's freakin good...kinda like a light hearted Lifehouse)
3) Bee Gees- How Deep is your Love? ( a classic i never get sick of listening)
4) Lifehouse - Quasimodo (this song is one of my favs... i can't explain how great it is)

Tt's kinda roughly what i'm listening too....and the songs are not placed in a particular order of any sort.....all of them rock...it just depends on which one rocks more...:D...lolz

OH YEAH...!!!...HOW COULD I FORGET!!!...THE HOOBASTANK CONCERT!!!...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!...I'm so freakin stoned about tt...and i got 2 free ticks to go...thanks to Levi's...YEAH MAN...LEVI'S ROCKS...gonna bring my cds and mabbe a shirt or something to get autographed...man...this is like my dream concert...HAHAHAHA...can't wait for it....14th August Sentosa...DON'T FORGET IT!!!! 7.30 p.m!!!!! Peace..OUT!!!!

Wow...it's been a busy week...

2004-07-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh....finally...i've finished my graph comm comfortably, but yet time consumingly...I think i learned something about poly life today. When the assignment comes.....u take it and start on it IMMEDIATELY...plus...we must learn how to multi task....i hate to say it...but Suja made a good point today...If we continue doin stuff one by one...we'll never make it in mass comm....and i think i'm gonna take those 2 pieces of advice to heart.

I'm sorry i havn't blogged for the past few days or so....it's been really really busy....but i think it's coz we don't know how to manage our time well enuff....and we must make use of all the time we are given...and not to start only at the last minute...coz then we won't be happy with our assignments..or ourselves at the end of the day...agree?..I think so...

Just to remind myself.....and my classies from NP readin it....we still have the script for LVP which is due next week...editing our footage as well.....for Medsoc we have the debate comin next week as well..Ohh...and i almost forgot...SAB test next week and Speech Comm impromtu assessed speech as well....Don't get me wrong...i'm not tryin to stress u all out...but their cold, hard facts.....facts which i'd rather not ignore....

On a extremely higher note though...HOOBASTANK IS HAVIN THEIR CONCERT IN S'PORE IN SENTOSA ON 14th AUGUST!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so freakin stoned about tt....and u can be certain to find me there.....with the $79 ticket in the foremost free standing area....And guitar class is on Sat...YEAH MAN!!...I can finally use my elec guit again...coz rite now i don't have an amp...but YEAH...i can get to use it with one again during my lesson...and get this....i'll be learnin the Slash's solos for Sweet Child O' Mine!!!! AHHHHHH...SO COOL!!!! WAHAHAHA....I'm ready...let's do it i say....

Sides that is there anything else?...hmmm...i don't think so.....oh yea....i mabbe installin a game on my laptop for some entertainment in skool....a racin game perhaps?...or Sacred....Actually, i have both already ...it just depends on which one is more fun and won't get monotonous....hmmm....i think i'll go for the racing...NFS: Underground...i hope it'll run smoothly on my laptop....

Anything else?....Hmmm.....soccer trainin was dope again....i was goalie...but u how it sucks when u feel u let in goals...even when u know it's not realli your fault...lolz....we won 5-4 against our other soccer players in a dif team.....But i was performin better in the 2nd half....passing become more open and became wider...used the whole width of the pitch....i think we're startin to get it...:D...plus the coach says he'll mabbe arrange a match against the other players in the afternoon class....HAH..they don't stand a chance with us around....lolz...Peace....Out...

Finally got my elec guit...and it feels GOOD....

2004-07-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yepz...u'd better believe it fellas....i'm gonna rock the whole neighbourhood!!!...rite after i get my amps...lolz....ah...wth am i talkin bout...one amp's enuff...lolz...I'm tryin to master Sweet Child O' Mine now...and i can feel myself drawing closer to my goal each day. I don't know how this enthusiasm for the guitar springs within me....i'm thinkin it's probably from all the years i've loved music, but never got the chance to play the tunes tt i so love. I really hope this interest grows with every song i master...maybe..just maybe...don't laugh... but just mabbe i can reach my fantasy dream of forming a band with my mates and makin it big in s'pore and than the rest of asia...or mabbe the world...Hell yeah man...if i get that...i'd say my life is pretty much fufilled...I've never been a fella to take the spotlight...i'm not a realli good speaker... and i don't like to show off..unless i'm in front of my fellas...hahaz...i can only do that w/o feeling like i'm being an arrogant son of a biotch....lolz

Somehow...when i sing...or when i play...i seem to forget that there are pple around me...Ok..so mabbe my singin may be a bit off pitch for some songs...sue me...i'm not a professional singer....i don't have professional trainin...but i like to sing...and music can most of the time reflect the way i feel...like when i'm walkin down a street....and i'm listening to Jason Mraz's " The Remedy"...it's so uplifting...u feel like dancing along the street..like what u see in those MTV music vids....Or when i'm in a gloomy or brooding mood...when i put on Lifehouse's "Hanging by a Moment" i feel like i'm one of those fellas in the MTV music vids who's sitting near a window and watching it rain outside...I don't even have to explain it...u can understand i'm sure...

These few days....or weeks or mabbe even months actually...i seemed to have changed....i'm no longer that pondering, thinking fella that i was when i was in SJI....i'm probably still tall...LOLZ...and i'm probably still good at makin sucky games sound fun..lolz...or singin nice songs with the fellas...but i seem to have lost that different outlook on life....i guess it's coz my best fren's not here with me in s'pore...yepz..u know who u are man...you're my best fren...but it's obvious tt that the 2 other Js are close to me as well...but not like u bro. I can no longer seem to express my views with anyone...views bout life...and stuff about life that makes life worth living...u know? I think i'm pretty fortunate to have met someone like u...Yes...i know this sounds real gay...but i don't care man...i think this is a frenship tt spans the whole of our lives. Anyone else readin this who thinks i'm gay...u can go shove tt thought rite up your roody poo candy ass...yea...tt's what i said...lolz...I THINK JESSICA ALBA IS HOT...there...more evidence tt i'm hetero-sexual..lolz..

Sides u man...i think the only other way i can express my thoughts...are through the music i listen and the music i play with my brand new, spanking 2nd hand Yamaha guit...lolz....

Hmmm...come to think of it....here's a thought...have any of u readin this blog ever felt a frenship so strong like me and my fellas?...if so...comment on this post..i'd like to know...it's like w/o them....you're not u....and although any other fren else feels nice to be around with....it's not exactly the same feelin u get when you're with your close frens. A wise man once said that he felt that there was no such thing as a best fren...mabbe a close fren...but not a best fren...hehe...mabbe it's just his way of puttin it...y u ask?...Well..coz i THINK he tot that frenships were impermanent, temporary....no matter how long or short...it wasn't something like parental love....which was unconditional, "24/7 u know it's always there" type of love. Ahh...i don't know...i'm not one to judge....everybody has their own opinion...and this is just one opinion i have about somebody else's.

I'm kinda tired mentally think bout this...plus i'm listening to music...so i can't realli focus my thoughts...and when i'm tired...i tend to ramble on about stuff tt doesn't cocern the post...so i think i'd best be signin off now...lolz...Peace...Out

Sick Cycle Carousel..feels good to listen to Lifehouse again...

2004-07-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

Bought "No Name Face" from Lifehouse and The Darkness's first album yesterday....and i have to say...it was quite worth it...Lifehouse brings me back to the good ol' days where their hit single was "Hanging by a Moment"....i'm wishing for them to have a new album...coz they've seemed to have disappeard off the face of the music world...but J said that he remained optimistic tt they would come back with a new album...i sure hope they do man...i miss their music....and i don't want this only album the remind me of the good music they make....SPeakin of good ol' days..... in sji...haaaa....so slow and simple life was...now it's changed....i won't say how..it's just changed...for good or for worse i can't realli tell....It's way too early to tell anything at the moment...

I finished my speech bout one hour ago as well...i realli hope it's long enuff to cover the assumed 5 min time limit. Y in the blue hell am i so worried bout speech comm anyway??...Just told Gail that i think Cordy has a lethal fakeness about her....and i don't wanna get on her badside...That should be the reason y....but anywayz...it's too late to do anything now...even if i still have time...i doubt i'll do much...heh...coz i just feel like stoning and listening to music and chattin on MSN.

Mean Girls...haha....what a funny ass movie...i loved the the part where Lindsay, who was dressed in some vamp wedding gown outfit, charged out of the back door of a house....and scared the balls off some guy sittin on the railing...lolz...He went all "ahhHHHHH"...kinda like the shout Homer makes when he panics...haha...funny shit man.

Sides that...nothin much else happening on this eventful thurs. Oh..mabbe the onli other thing was the assessed debates in week 6 and 7..ahh...the pressure's on...The Day of Reckoning has arrived....but i will all rise to the occasion...for it is in these moments...that i am truely defined as a man of service and integrity...Just like a true Josephian...yes...the SJI bond is still in me...and it is hard to extinguish it...mabbe it will never...who knows?...I hope it doesn't...coz if it does...i won't be me anymore....Ora Et Labora....Peace...Out....

Nothin much today...just a bit of thinking

2004-07-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

Like the posts says...nothin much...coz i'm thinkin...lolz...So go away...haha....Peace...Out

A 2nd Hand Yamaha guitar...and a song from Keith Urban....2 things tt keep me happy...besides my kin and frens of course

2004-07-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hey hey pple....sorry bout yesterday...too lazy to type...plus i think i was playin a game...lolz..Anywayz...guitar lesson on Sat was super dope....Learned the intro riff from "Sweet Child o' mine" by Guns and Roses and roughly the whole song of "Hero" by Chad Kreoger fea. Josey Scott. Yepz...the solo in "Hero" is wicked...simple..but a lot of passion in it...i love tt solo...never forget it..As for "sweet child o' mine" it's a guitarist's anthem i suppose....if u don't know it then "tsk tsk"...lolz...but seriously though...the song itself is very melodious...melodious but taxing..lolz...I mean come on...anything with Slash inside has got to have some serious shredding in his solos. Heh. And my teach is gonna teach me the whole song..yea...u'd better believe it man...and i'm ready for it...although i'm a wee bit scared..heh...

Besides tt...wow i just paragraphed..i must keep this good habit up...heh...anywayzzz....those 2 songs tt i mentioned above?...Well i tried them out with my guitar teach's frens Yamaha Elec guit...and man issit dope...the sustain and power is def there alrite...and i can't wait to buy it sometime next week...$180 onli...the org. price is a whooping $350..heh...better take it when it's still low...As for the amps and pedals..ah heck...i don't care...i'm still buying them even if it's a hefty price(though i can get it at a discounted price from my teach...coz he has connections..hehe)...Then i can FINALLY play in distortion...and do bends and hammer ons and pull offs with good effect...nvm...i'm rambling again...haha...

Well...tt's one good thing that i'm lookin forward too...plus i have new songs to learn and practice for...so tt'll keep the week ahead pretty busy...Plus...i have to mention this fairly old song...mabbe bout last year?...It's called "somebody like u" by Keith Urban....and this song makes my go woozy...lolz...it's a good song with a good beat and pretty catchy guitar strums. A country rock song...hmmm...i'm beginning to think that my calling to music is more of an alt. rock and country rock(with a dash of metal) feel. Wow...if WE make it big...i'll make tt new typa music...Like a combi of Nickelback and Hoobastank....and LP...i know James...u'd like tt won't u?..Lolz...Hell yea then...u can do whatever u like after our band is formed....Gettin back to the topic, go give tt song a listen...it realli is quite meaningful and fun...kinda reminds pple of crushes or feelins they have when their in love. Song's from "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" if u wanna know. Haiz..love...what do u NOT say about it?...haha...Peace...Out...

Sleep...the answer to emptiness

2004-07-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

Weird...now...lyin in my bed...with the laptop on my lap...i don't feel at all empty...stewpid soul...probably too tired or sleepy to feel anything....O...how fickle minded my soul is...choosing to leave at the time i need it the most....and entering my body at a time when i don't need it....Nevertheless, my soul..all souls for that matter are important...they are your sixth sense...a sense of belonging to yourself....your self esteem....your guide....your aid....they are u...u are them...whatever that means...lolz..i think u make your own soul...but your soul is the one who controls u....kinda like Humans makin robots....just make sure that the robots don't start makin humans...tt's all i'm trying to say. hmmm...i don't think this emptiness will carry on to tml night...since it's a weekend....but u never know....i'm lookin for some new game to play....coz rite now i'm bored out of my mind....lookin forward to tml's guitar lesson though...so tt's good, can keep me occupied with a new song for the rest of the week. I seem to be rambling...i don't think i'm making any sense...so i think i'll stop writing now....*chuckles*...Peace...Out...

Part of me's lost and i hope i find it....

2004-07-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

Something's wrong...i feel empty...like a part of me's lost...i havn't contemplated about anything these past few days...i've been distracted with projects...lectures...tutorials...and everything else about poly life...but somehow...when i come home...i can't escape this inevitable feeling of emptiness...and the weird thing is that after my guitar class i lose this emptiness for a moment...but not long after..it emerges from the back of my mind and my soul...it's a weird feelin that i've never felt b4...I'm not sayin that poly life sucks...believe me...it rocks...but secondary skool life is so sweet....mabbe the nostalgia is startin to sink in....could be many other reasons i guess...i really don't know...Listening to Vindicated right now...and somehow it sorta reflects the way i feel...not all of the lyrics...but the way he sings it...i can kinda relate to tt...Hmmm....now that i think of it...i think i know why....it could be that i havn't found anyone like me to relate with...to talk with on the same level...about anything...songs...life....anything...I'm thinkin a part of me is Jin...dunno bout u bud...but i think it's true for me...I'm lucky to have met u...and of course Jeremy...James...u are all like me in a way...Guitar lessons prob remind me of ya'll coz of your love of music...*sigh*...Life changes and most pple don't like changes...but we still have to adapt to it. I can handle poly life...it's the 'after' class life i can't handle....havn't met anybody remotely close to any of u guys or me...and tt's very sad....but well...i guess i just have to eat some lemons from time to time...and mabbe...just mabbe the grapes or strawberries will come....Peace...Out

Filming tml..big day..

2004-07-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

Well heya fellas...tml's a big day for me and almost everyone else in our LVP tutorial...yepz...it's the filming of our Narrative Video Exercise...Thankfully it's not assessed...so we can breathe better this time round..The ideas and shots are all there..and me and nicole are supposed to fill up the storyboards...I havn't completed it yet...but with my expertise...ah..i can do tt in no time...lolz..Spent quite a lot of time goin into detail with this short film...i realli hope we can pull this off nice and clean tml...coz no matter what...we have to finish by 5...groan...y the time limit..nvm...we'll just have to learn to cope with it. I'll be the cameraman...so i have a lot of pressure to make things look good...but i wanna try out my hand at using the cam...think it'll be fun to do so. Sue en is our actor...lolz...hopefully she's up to her perky self tml...if she doesn't come...we'll all just die..lolz. This whole thing is a team effort...no one person is more important than the other...although pple might feel differently coz they think they have more responsibilities. I know i won't...instead i'll be content when i do my own job well...and when my grp mates do so similarly. I know everybody wants this to be clean and fast...so we'll all try to cooperate as well as possible. Other than tt nothin much realli happened today...aside from playin online pool and listening to music on laptops. Oh yeah!..Almost forgot...Sue En lives very close to my Grandma's house...found tt out today when we took the same bus together...coz i went to pay a visit to my Grandma..and to find out whether my baby cousin had actually become cuter than he already was..*chuckle*..Passin SJI rekindles so many many memories...*sigh*...Ora Et Labora..Peace...Out...

Location Video Production was fun today...and i still want a D.A template!!!!

2004-07-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Eyz pple...haha...my second time writing in to my blog. Amazing huh?...Don't know how long i can keep this up...but at the rate i'm loggin in to msn every night...things are lookin up for blogging. Anywayz...nothin realli much today..i'm either sayin tt coz i'm too tired to think...or there realli was nothin...During break today i played pool with like 7 girls...Yes..7 Girls and one guy...man...so pai seh in a way...LOL...haiyah...i'm just not used to it yet i guess...But i had fun...Always take my time...letting my opponent/classmate...lolz...yea...i meant tt...anywayz...i always seem to be laggin behind in the regular Stripes/Solids typa game...It's called Straight pool am i rite?..Correct me if i'm wrong pple. Back to the point, somehow i always get this last minute inspiration that allows me to tense up, get all the angles correctly and potting all the balls in at the most crucial moment...Cool huh?...Well, i got a few of my classmates pretty irritated...said that i was tyco...MY ASS TYCO...lolz...i don't know...mabbe it's a gift...:D....Plus i won a game with the cue extension stick....cool stuff...felt good. Shortly after playin pool during our 4 hour break, headed back to NP where we had LVP...man...That was when we had a look at our Test Rolls...some were freak ass funny shit....but most were complimented by our teach Mr Millians. Pronouced Merlion by some pple...but anywayz...got a compliment from him...and feelin damned good about it..lolz...short term morale booster i call those...Whelps...i think tt's about it..Oh yea...also bought a new pair of soccer boots today...for Sports & Wellness tml...Peace...Out...

Hmmm...i guess i've finally found the time to open myself up...

2004-07-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...i know it's been a LONG while since i wrote a blog....i had one long ago...and i neglected it...sorry bout tt one....it was stagnant after like the first 3 days of use...what can i say...i can have a very short attention span sometimes....BUT...as a memory of the old blog i had...i'm gonna use it's original wallpaper on this one as well...But don't worry...i will keep changing it to whatever suits me at that point in time...In the meantime...hope to hear more of u guys replyin in and checkin out my site...my life...and what i'm all about....

Crap it...it seems i'm havin some trouble findin Blogskins for Dark Angel...anybody knows whether u need to just find the Wallpapers....and u can just customize the rest of the source code yourself?